One step forward, two steps back

Depending on how you look at this picture, this is my 13 pound cat using his 2 pound sister as a pillow and she’s too small to get away, or it’s my kitties snuggling in a loving way.

Being that the sister is a tiny ninja of destruction and the brother is a passive love bug, I’m going with they are snuggling and she’s not being held down against her will. But my point is, check in to make sure that what is happening in your life is truly what you want in life.

I’ve recently had a string of set backs due to this lack of authenticity. It seems like everything I buy is defective. It kind of got me down and feeling sorry for myself. But then I sat back and realized something. Each “set back” was an indication that I’m doing things I don’t really want to do. I’m doing “should’s” and convincing myself it’s what I truly want.

I sat down and made a list of each set back, and why I had bought it (or in some case just took that action) and the pattern was clear.

Sometimes on my path for an easier life, I give up authority and let others take over. Not that it’s healthy to be a control freak, but make sure you aren’t settling for inauthenticity just because it’s easy.

So now, I need to counter the should’s with desire. In some cases I need to stop the activity, in others I need to tweak my perception. And in a few cases I need to bring my own brand of style in to the picture.

From now on, I’m going to see set backs as road signs showing me that the path I’m choosing isn’t quite right. Not to say I need to totally change my route, but I certainly need to check in with myself and see what my real feelings are.